Lessons of 5th Chakra

So Wednesday morning I awoke with a heavy sickness coming on; started in my throat and took me out. This was in some way (like all things) probably really necessary- that I was out cold for a few days. This allowed me to have precious alone time, deep internal reflection time, and the sleep that I have been craving - even if I was concious of that craving or not. Being sick is literally like having a powerful reset button being pushed. The body naturally cleanses itself, naturally heals itself, and naturally loves itself- only if we (spirit/ego) allow the natural process to happen. I am so grateful at how fast and natural my body is progressing. From when I woke up this morning at around 9 am to now 2pm... the heavy residue of my sore throat is practically gone. To me that is incredible. Of course I know instaneous healing, quantum healing, miracle healing, ect. all exist... but I have to start somewhere right?
So much gratitude comes from having abilities and situations taken away- and then to have them again. This learning process that comes through seperation is incredible. I really wish I could carry around the humbleness, reverence, and sheer appreciation for the simplest things in life- all the time. Our health is EVERYTHING. Without it- then what? To me life is about quality, how can I soak in the richness of this experience without having an optimal body to pass the experience through? My heart goes out to all those people in the world who are in deep pain- how can we as a human race allievate suffering?
Though- I do recognize suffering has its place. I am certainly grateful for it (if it is in the least bit tolerable)- because it allows me to be that much more grateful, humble, centered, and compassionate.

My physical lessons as of about a month seem to be dealing with the throat. Avenues of expression. Releasing all fears of expressing 100% honestly to how I feel, what I am experiencing at any given moment. There is such a boost of self-empowerment when I just lay it out flat- when I allow there to be no hinderances to how I am experiencing this reality. I recognize in my being completely honest and vulnerable- it allows others to do the same and to recieve me in a more compassionate state. But above all- this is honestly the only thing I CAN DO. It is a little errie- I must admit. I feel so in tune with my own inner state (ok ok not all the time... but a lot) that to not express something that I feel like must be expressed- just seems absurdly ridonculous...

And to add to that:
I moved to Salt Lake City to go through massage school with a close soul sister, Shelly. It really does feel like we are in some intense relationship right now- because I kind of more or less depend on her for my active life here. Through her I have met everyone I have met- have had the amazing opportunities I have had...ect. I just wanted to honor how well I think we are both doing for the intensity of the situation- because we are spending almost 24/7 with each other- granted we are still looking for that perfect spot to root down and create serious space boundaries- called bedrooms. I believe one of the key ingredients we both have down pretty solid, is our ability to communicate from the heart. If we are sensing that something is up, or we infringed on a sensitivity, or whatever- we can always approach and handle each situation with maturity. Even if it is in retrospect- and we have had a moment to think before reacting.
 In Lak'esh. I am another you.
I honor all my relations:
IN EVERYTHING they are teaching me.

Through the challenges comes great rewards- I feel like everytime I take a big leap forward in learning about myself- I have accomplished so incredibly much! That is why we are here right?
To. To. To.... LEARN. YEA...
And what better than to have amazing goddesses, fellow human beings, and nature- reflect back to us our own shadows, our own beauty, and our own infinitie potential?

Wo... that was definitely quite a download. Love you!

Moab Utah verus Salt Lake City

This 3 day weekend I went 4 hours south of Salt Lake City to the famous Moab desert of Utah! I went in a car full of amazing goddesses: Jen, Cree, and Shelly! Together we rolled down to the red rocks- I was completely blown away by the intenseness of natures' creations. Saturday we met up with Shelly's old high school guy friends and met up at the colorado river. We had two big rafts and packed a bunch of stuff on board for an adventurous overnight trip. Life is amazing. Once we completely let go and flow in each and every moment- magic begins to happen. I am reflecting now how important it is to live free and without judgement towards myself or others. This time in my life now I seem to be breaking every box I had sub-conciously put myself in. It feels so utterly liberating to experience life without "boundaries" and "boxes of perceptions". So after floating down an epic river, our crew of people landed on a deserted beach bank to dock up for the night. I witnessed the sunset reflecting on the sculpted red rocks, I drank in the summer moist air, I was held by the majesty of natures grace, I was fed deeply. The night progressed and the stars were the most incredible I may have seen yet: an endless spray of cosmic fairy dust.

The ladies I had come on the trip with each represented an element: Shelly; water, Cree; earth, Jen; fire, Me; Air..... The weekend was a cosmic dance between honesty, respect, and our elements interacting with vitality. Jen plans on painting each of us in our element- she is an incredible artist- look her up at Jennifer Michelle Long.

To sum up an incredible weekend- I feel nourished deeply in all ways. Physically, spiritually, mentally- my support and balance came from my elemental goddesses, the actual elements, and the freedom of expression.
YEAH!

OH MY GODDESSSSSSSSS

Why why why....
HAHA so I am here in salt lake city wanting more then anything to have a space to call my own. Somewhere I can feel at least relatively grounded while I go through a really intensive massage training program, start a whole new life, work, dance, create.... I am recognizing my inate desires to feel GROUNDED. More then obvious. To be grounded. To be grounded. I WANT TO BE GROUNDED. I guess I have the choice. Right? It is up to me to stay balanced in myself no matter the outer circumstances. Which I have to say has been quite sucessful- but even so there is something to be said for physical locality and knowing where all my things are at every given moment because they have a shelf and arent stuffed in a dusty closet somewhere. O poops. The energy of this day is strange. I feel so grateful for everything and just a tad bit fustrated. Ok great! more medicine to be working with now I guess. In moments of tension we can learn to release into divine flow the most.
LOVE. Is all i can do. and so i will. oh poops.

Grounding out, or trying to.

Aloha!
WHAT A GREAT AMAZING ADVENTURE I HAVE BEEN HAVING!!!! QWHODAIDFUSDOIFU!!!
Seriously coming from months of quiet, internal, alone time- to landing in Salt Lake City with my soul sistah Shelly- it has been quite a ride. I really feel like each day is this incredible party, probably because I am constantly surrounded by such beautiful human being reflections. Well I started massage school on Tuesday. Such a good idea! So excited to be accelerating and learning so much so fast! After shelly and I got back from our road trip which was on Monday- we have been waking up just in time to get to school by 8 am. Yesterday was a powerful day.
So let me explain this in a bit more detail. Shelly and I have been vizualizing and holding our perfect house in our hearts and feeling the existance of this new opportunity as a reality. Currently we are living with 6 other people in a community house in Salt Lake. It is such a beautiful place here with a solar powered round greenhouse, a beautiful lush garden, bees, chickens, a huge yoga/movement/healing space, and super beautiful people. So we have everything we want except our own space and place to unpack anything that belongs to us. So it is crazy---- it could become annoying if we let it be, it could become a drama if we let it, we could be fustrated that our dream house hasnt yet magically appeared in the way we were expecting. BUT- I had a revelation that even this little amount of resistence to what is infront of me- by wishing I had my own space, my own corner, or a place to put and unpack my stuff- is blocking me from fully making the most of my current reality and situation. I could wish and wish and wish that I had my own room, that I had this and that and the other- so that I could then allow myself to settle into a routine- BUT no. I must create my heaven with what I have right here and now, with every ounce of flow and openness- letting go of all resistence. It is overwhelming when i think of everything I have/want to do: find a way to make money, find a place to live, homework study, massage school, artistic projects, butoh practices, my own personal routine which consists of meditation and yoga and sometimes running,..... it is crazy to be beginning a whole new life in a whole new city.
BUT I am so stoked!!!! It feels like a magnificent dream. One in which I am lucid dreaming. How can I be resistant to any of this? What am I truly lacking? In place of what I feel like I am lacking, I have an amazing community and love vibezzz surrounding me. What more could one really truly need other then the knowingness of how to be content with EACH MOMENT, the present, and trusting that all I need is provided for???
Right so why yesterday was amazing is because I just stopped. I turned to Shelly and I said Wow. I recognize I was stressing and saying unnecessarily that I was fustrated- wasn't helping anything other then to gratify my own ego and desires for what isn't present. I love those moments of instant clairity.
BABMMMMBB
Then I sang untill 2 am with 4 beautiful Goddesses- I channeled divine song. We did healing work on each other and could be verifed of the shift because one goddess could actually visually see auras and energy.

I release all blockages and fears. I allow divine source to flow through me. I open up to divine blissful SONG.

Creation is Awesome

Havin a blast,
Norianna