I am infinitely abundant. I choose to live life in the highest vibration possible.
I am smack dab in the middle of releasing a whole bunch of SHANNIGANS. It is interesting how being physically ill tends to clear a lot in my life. On Thursday 2 nights ago, I underwent a powerful medicine journey and probably went deeper into the matrix of reality then I have ever gone before. This is literally what I wrote on a piece of paper to set the intention for my trip right before. " I resolve to allow the plant spirit medicine to dissolve anything holding me back in any way from creating and maintaining high abundance. I let the energies of tonight show me new aspects/ deeper aspects of myself I need to work on and change. Letting go of any lack, fear, uncertainty mentality." Low and behold I go to sleep and wake up the next day pretty sick with heavy body aches and a fever. Today I feel about the same- just resting and now pondering as I write this, how can this sickness be related to my journey? In any case it is teaching me to totally let go and surrender- because that is ALL I can do. This weekend would have been a super abundant weekend with a sweet massage gig at the Sundance Film Festival in Park City, UT. But you know what? Other people get to have that abundance. Debilitating Sickness seems to always come at a trying time for me. The chance that I do have to make some solid money just slips away- not so easy when you have 200 dollars to your name. Why is it that I can have thousands of dollars in my bank account one week and a few weeks later it is all gone? Of course money comes and goes- that is what it is meant for. But I am honestly over and done with this pattern. I am ready and capable of keeping many many dollars in my bank account- enough so that I have a vacation fund, an emergency fund, a savings fund, and something that goes towards investments. So part of this healing journey feels like a deep purging of belief systems and clearing space in my physical and mental body for the new "programs" I get to be running. These new programs are nothing but the highest vibration possible. I am infinitely abundant in every way: in love, in friendship, in money, in food sources, in my home space, in my choices, in my freedom, in my career...etc. I am truly excited to start this new process. Starting now. I am excited to play with the matrix we call reality. As I experienced myself as the divine creator feminine Goddess on Thursday night, I am excited to play with manifestation and creative action. Anything is possible; that I experience and know first hand from medicine journeys to life experience. I am the creator and the destroyer of myself.
I am excited and ready to start living in a high abundance mindset and lifestyle, to live with class and style, freedom and creativity. And who ever said anything had to be hard? I am open to this abundance coming from anywhere, even the lottery!!!
So these are just musings I felt like sharing. It is good to go global with my thoughts sometimes. Any comments or opinions are always appreciated.
