Healing process

Healing process.

I thought I was in for a week or so of pure torturous pain and feeling uncomfortable in my skin. As it turns out surgery was not even half as bad as I had expected. Swallowing of course hurt but not to the extent that I was used to from previous infected tonsils. I was loaded on pain meds so I don’t know how bad it would have ACTUALLY been without medications- but of course I am content to never know. I never had a fever, felt slightly nauseated only a few mornings because I was taking pain meds ever 4 hours during the night without taking a bite to eat with the pill…J Basically I was content. I still am content. It has been a solid week since surgery and I feel slightly normal. The worst pain I’m experiencing currently is the tea tree oil seeping into my warts that I have covered with saran wrap. HAHA life. We expect the worst and the best comes out of it. Right- now I wouldn’t say that is a universal law….

I would attribute a lot of my success to a few things in particular. I have been wearing a necklace by Buddha Mayitraya consisting of a crystal with gold wire wrapping and magnets (god consciousness frequency tool 100%). Since wearing it I have noticed a general overall peacefulness and contentment with each given moment. So prior going into surgery I was calm, relaxed, loved, fully supported, and at ease. Second I have been able to maintain a lot of fluids throughout the process including fresh carrot, beet, celery, and green juices. I don’t know what to attribute to my healing but everything that has been influential in the process. A major realization was that throughout the process I have been completely and utterly loved and supported. Being in a state of love and receptivity throughout has been extremely blissful and conducive to my healing.

So I’d go through it again- this experience has been lovely and deeply healing on many levels. Of course it sucks having raw throats and no bowel evacuations for a week--J but like I’ve said, it’s all worth it. Especially since the doctors reported that there was some weird scarring on the tonsils, which they’ve sent into the pathology lab for further testing; another sign confirming my decision.

Furthermore timing of things seem to have an effect on the outcome. I was orginially scheduled for thursday May 17th. My dad had a flight to come out and take care of me- everything was set- I was set on surgery. The monday of the week of surgery- I came across information that completely resonated with me- so I decided to cancel surgery to try out this method. I let my dad know about my
descion to cancel yet he was still excited to come out and take a week long vacation with me. That Tuesday night I get another phone call from him telling me his flight was just cancelled. WHAT??? Total syncronisities everywhere..... dum dum dum
 Nonetheless that following Sunday I became infected again with this lovely bacteria ever pervading within my tonsils. I decided well lets just do it. My boyfriend reassured me that throughout the process he would be there with me doing everything in his power to make it as easy, fun, and comfortable for my speedy recovery. Ok we thought :) it would at the very least be a pretty intimate bonding experience. I rescheduled surgery for that Thursday hoping that the infection I currently had would subside enough to do it through taking antibiotics again. Thursday morning came about bright and early,  7:15 was my appointment- I felt light, great, and fully present. My friend Tawnie showed up at the hospital as well and definitely helped set the mood by bringing laughter and the utmost positive spirits with her. The trippyest thing was going down on anethesia. I heard the doctor say ok you've got about 25 seconds- but before second 8 I was out black. I remember having a slight dream right before a nurse said my name to bring me back to conciousness: "Norianna can you hear me?" Bam- all of a sudden I was back to reality though I couldn't for the life of me, open my eyes. It was such a wierd feeling to know that I was out of body- out of conciousness- for 30 minutes meanwhile surgeons took out an organ of mine. CRAZY!! Anyways from there on it was recovery time. I was in a way fortunate to have been on oxycodone because the pain was completely tolerable... (helpful hints for future cases of tonsilectomy for any of you!!) So there you have it a very very brief and concise description of my last week and then some.

As always I am ever grateful for life and all of it's miraculous miracles it bestows upon me!! I am soooooo amazed currently at my reflections- I am able to see myself more and more clearly for the pure essence that I am through looking at all of my close friends and relationships. The strong, empowered, wise, concious, loving, solid, creative, visionary people that I am constantly surrounded with surely says a lot about who I am as well. It is such an honor to see myself through everyone elses eyes- and I am ever humbled.

Mahalo
Norianna

Surgery and Unity

So wow- I tend to wait until things build up and build up before I explode onto these blogging pages. There is so much I would love to share. First of all I just rescheduled a tonsilectomy for this thursday- after already having in scheduled for last thursday and cancelling because of bizarre cirumstances. It does feel good even though its strange enough to think about cutting out a loved part of my precious body. There is some intense bacteria invasion that my body hasn't been able to get rid of for the last year- The reason I had cancelled last week was because there was an opportunity to fully cure my tonsil case through the use of state of the art alchemy- tailored to my astrological influences. Yet of course Sunday I contracted this bacteria again and Im not in the most strong physical state. For reasons yet to be discovered I was supposed to cancel last week. All I can do is to trust continually in this divine process of healing. My dad was also supposed to fly out last wednesday- and late tuesday night he got a call from his airline saying his flight was cancelled- all the more auspicious.

So if all goes well- and is in perfect order I will be having the first surgery of my life this thursday. I am so ready because as I am writting this- my right tonsil is pretty f****** swollen and I am so ready to be healthy for years on an end.

What else has been happening? Well I constantly make plans and melt them away as I see something else is taking place. And now what is exactly happening? Health and healing on all levels. I have been calling in a divine masculine partner- someone who can hold their power as a God and compliment my intrinsic Goddess. Guess what? He has completely and fully arrived!! Again and again I see the perfect timing of the universe- it is almost like I can never make a wrong desicion because I am so guided the whole way. There is such magic that I am witnessing as two people who are completely in love with themselves come together. When the man can fully hold his divine masculine and the woman can fully hold her divine feminine- a true harmonious unity takes place. This is the new earth that we are birthing. I feel so honored to be leading this birthing process in my own way. I see as I continue living my truth and being myself to the fullest- how powerful of an effect it has on people everywhere. I feel like I am rewritting the paradigm of relationships right now. What does it mean to be fully served as a goddess, what does it mean to be loved unconditionally, what does it mean to honor the masculine so fully that I see the intrinsic nature of the universe playing out between us? Yet more than anything the only way I can see this happening for others - or the fact that I can even experience this magic now- is because both of us have done a lot of internal work and self-awareness work. Everything external has an internal origin. Unity within myself can create an external example of it- ect.

So yummy stuff. I am infinitely grateful for this life I live and the lessons I learn each and every day. I am sure surgery will test my physicality to a whole new level- yet even knowing I will be so well taken care of eases any stress or anxiety.

As far as after Salt Lake city- don't even ask right now. I have had about 3 major plans of action in the last few months each of them falling away as life keeps presenting new opportunities.
All I can do is maintain presence and keep checking in.

Loving you.
n