Surgery and Unity

So wow- I tend to wait until things build up and build up before I explode onto these blogging pages. There is so much I would love to share. First of all I just rescheduled a tonsilectomy for this thursday- after already having in scheduled for last thursday and cancelling because of bizarre cirumstances. It does feel good even though its strange enough to think about cutting out a loved part of my precious body. There is some intense bacteria invasion that my body hasn't been able to get rid of for the last year- The reason I had cancelled last week was because there was an opportunity to fully cure my tonsil case through the use of state of the art alchemy- tailored to my astrological influences. Yet of course Sunday I contracted this bacteria again and Im not in the most strong physical state. For reasons yet to be discovered I was supposed to cancel last week. All I can do is to trust continually in this divine process of healing. My dad was also supposed to fly out last wednesday- and late tuesday night he got a call from his airline saying his flight was cancelled- all the more auspicious.

So if all goes well- and is in perfect order I will be having the first surgery of my life this thursday. I am so ready because as I am writting this- my right tonsil is pretty f****** swollen and I am so ready to be healthy for years on an end.

What else has been happening? Well I constantly make plans and melt them away as I see something else is taking place. And now what is exactly happening? Health and healing on all levels. I have been calling in a divine masculine partner- someone who can hold their power as a God and compliment my intrinsic Goddess. Guess what? He has completely and fully arrived!! Again and again I see the perfect timing of the universe- it is almost like I can never make a wrong desicion because I am so guided the whole way. There is such magic that I am witnessing as two people who are completely in love with themselves come together. When the man can fully hold his divine masculine and the woman can fully hold her divine feminine- a true harmonious unity takes place. This is the new earth that we are birthing. I feel so honored to be leading this birthing process in my own way. I see as I continue living my truth and being myself to the fullest- how powerful of an effect it has on people everywhere. I feel like I am rewritting the paradigm of relationships right now. What does it mean to be fully served as a goddess, what does it mean to be loved unconditionally, what does it mean to honor the masculine so fully that I see the intrinsic nature of the universe playing out between us? Yet more than anything the only way I can see this happening for others - or the fact that I can even experience this magic now- is because both of us have done a lot of internal work and self-awareness work. Everything external has an internal origin. Unity within myself can create an external example of it- ect.

So yummy stuff. I am infinitely grateful for this life I live and the lessons I learn each and every day. I am sure surgery will test my physicality to a whole new level- yet even knowing I will be so well taken care of eases any stress or anxiety.

As far as after Salt Lake city- don't even ask right now. I have had about 3 major plans of action in the last few months each of them falling away as life keeps presenting new opportunities.
All I can do is maintain presence and keep checking in.

Loving you.
n