spirit food

Dreams happen easier if you sleep.

Interesting.

We digest easier when we put food in our stomachs. It is what needs to be done.

Sometimes it gets complicated and challenging to do the simple things in life.

for me these simple things are my own practices.

dance.

meditation

yoga

eating wholesome foods

silence

space

nature

So when life takes a hold we gotta flow.

Where attention goes energy flows.

I don't know the theme of this blog.

Does it have to have a theme?

Are we scared to express our selves for fear of rejection, for fear of ridicule, for fear of not being good enough?

So read this.

This is me. I am me. Me is I. I am this. Infinite possibility in a human body. This is you. We are IT.

And understand. My lessons, my journey, my story is only another part of your own story. Together if we are true to who we are and what we are experiencing, we can learn from each other.

I am your best reflection.





Yesterday I went to a meditation class in Salt Lake. What the teacher was saying hit right on home for me. We don't have to do ANYTHING to attain connection with source. Techniques for mediation are like the boat that help you cross the river. Helpful, but can get in the way if you continue rowing on dry land- right? Really all we have to do is do nothing. Surrender. Source is in each and everyone of us. If we could stop everything- because it is the anything and everything that is a distraction and gets in the way- then source would begin to flow into us naturally.

What do you do that continues to block source energy from constantly living within you??

How come I feel disconnected at times and super connected at times? My heart wants to be open allllll the TIMMMEEE. Why isn't it? Why is it that there are judgements crossing my mind----

Oh. Nori. Duh. You are human. Remember that.

So yea. I need to eat. My spirit wants food. Spirit food.
Like my dance. My mediation. My intentional practices.

I would like to say we all crave spirit food. Perphaps that is what I am seeking when I bliss out eating coconut bliss, or raw chocolate cake.....


This just is.

You just are.

We are it.

Beings. Human Beings. Experiencing a hell of a lot right now.

Norianna is just one of those. Seeking intentional balance. I know I am the only one who can create it.

peace

life art process

Measuring.

I am trying to understand life.

At least what she is trying to tell me.

Where am I supposed to live?  Here or there?

Seems like clarity should explode from every cell of my being, or every cell of this table, or every cell of my food.

Is it possible to look into the coffee grinds and see what the future holds?

Can I?

I am inspired to create.
I watched the documentary about Anna Halprin called "Breath made visible"-

LIFE IS ART. there is no seperation.

And so in this life-art-process I can use my uncertinty to create art- I can dance in the midst of chaos, in the midst of not knowing, and in the middle of feeling unsettled.

All I have to do is DO IT. Commit to my life. Commit to my art. Let there be no seperation.

Measuring-
Balancing my time, my effort, my desire, my healing

I WANT IT ALL.....

I know that healing and dance are both predominate things in my life that I am here to do good work with.
Now my life is immersed in Massage school, the healing aspects- and I still feel like part of my soul is dying, being forgotten. The only thing that fulfills that part of my being is through dance, art, and the creative process... Even though I have noticed when I am fully immersed in that world- I would never be completely satisfied unless I incorporate the spirituality and healing aspects into dance and art.

This is a balance I am struggling to find. How can I have it all?
I usually tend to come really close-

Life. Trying to understand where and how everything fits and flows together.
I am recognizing the place and importance of the heart.
In order to understand- I must live from the heart, know from the heart, love from the heart.

Then there is no duality. And I can have it all.

Patience, commitment, dedication.

Healing, Dance, freedom, community, expression, nature, love, yes yes yes

Health

For about the last 2.5 weeks I've gone through a double wave of a serious throat infection. The second time it got to be so bad my dad actually flew out from North Carolina to see what was going on with me out here in Salt Lake City, UT. This was the first time I was ever hooked up to an IV- first time given steriods.... I like to say that cause it makes everything sound really intense- which it was, but now looking back it all seems so surreal. It is amazing to be more or less confined to an area for days on an end- with only me myself and I to look after. I wonder how much we constantly are running away from in the ways that we tend to distract or occupy ourselves.
I was definitely dealing with lots of 3rd Chakra stuff- needing to feel like I was just being loved, taken care of, and always attended to- So it was such a blessing that my father actually took the time to fly out and come to pamper and soothe my soul.
REally truly though I am the only one who can always soothe and comfort my own self.
Major lessons.
Major clearings.
Tests of strength, character, and resiliance

Who knows. Maybe subconciously a reason for my sickness was to connect with my dad. To understand him on a much deeper level; away from normal stresses and circumstances.

So grateful for all of my family in every way, shape, and form.

I am all better now.
Trying to take it easy.
Learn my lessons.
Feeling so much gratitude for swallowing, breathing, and my life!
namaste