Wow... I have basically been caught up in the every day ebb and flow of life here in SLC. I do want to keep this blog updated- yet I seem to be having trouble remembering- or just making the time to do so. So for further update- I graduated Massage School back in January- and I am still in the process of semi-studying and waiting for the letter to come in the mail that I can take my National Certification Exam.... Patience, patience, patience...
Wow I have been learning so much during my time here in SLC. It is so beautiful to have such a close friend serve as a reminder and reflection of myself in all the growing I have done in the past 9 months. Gestation period. Wow.
I am self-sustained. Learning about what it is that I truly desire. How I desire to be met on every level of my being by my close friends and lovers. How I desire to be dancing freely and creating art within community. How I desire to continue learning and diving further into the body, movement, and healing. How I desire to be a grounded gypsy - grounded in where I am at the moment but always open and ready for the next big adventure to come my way. How I desire LOVE. Unconditional love in the ways it wants to hug me from friends and syncronisities. I desire to be in complete union with spirit and to attract other beings into my life who are indeed living in harmony with spirit and laws of creation.
I desire to be held and craddled in my counterpart - a masculine energy that balances out every aspect of my own self.
I am open and ready for whatever it is I am supposed to do. Now is all I have. Now is something I must practice. I have to practice being in love with this moment. I am generally quite content with whatever the moment is. Yet I want to practice being in LOVE with this moment. Like that sensation that my heart wants to melt for witnessing the pure beauty that is life is too much to handle sometimes. Kind of like seeing a puppy that is so adorable it almost hurts....
So Yeah. I am grateful. Even for all the miracle that happen every day if we open our eyes to them. Like for example last night I had an accident where I should have broken my ankle or seriously sprained it- due to the way I fell... yet I got up and knew it was not that serious. I did stress a ligament- but I am so grateful nothing more serious happened. In moments like that I feel very craddled by my angles/guardians- I sense their wings of support around me.
Just some words to chew on....
Loving you.
Monday, February 20, 2012
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Golden golden highlights
Wow. Time.
Massage school is almost done. I have about a month left of classes, and then I have January to finish up anything extra. Who knows what will happen after I graduate.
My brain wants to plan and figure out the next step. My heart is being drawn back to the Islands of Hawaii. My heart also needs to be dancing, creating art, training, utilizing this body I have to dance my dances.
Things are flowing nicely. I have such an amazing homebase filled with so much love, respect, and Goddess power. Cree, Shelly, and I have such powerful harmony it is almost ridiculous. What an empowering stage of my life I am in, to be living with such amazing Goddesses- and to be furthering my own work as a healer.
Since as long as I can remember I have known my work here is many-fold. Physically I feel like I am always attempting to mesh myself in the healing world and the artistic dance world at the same time. Living in Mexico, dancing, was an intense period of creative explosion, and now living in Salt Lake city, I am in an intense period of learning deeply about the body and different methods of how to bring it back to balance. Maybe my life will keep doing this big pendulum swing from healing to dance- untill I can bring them both into my life fully and equally. Besides the fact that each contains the other as in the Yin/Yang balance. To dance is to heal, and to heal is to dance with life.
(In lomi-lomi massage from hawaii- the philosophy is to be dancing with God on the clients body-)!!!!
So many wonderful things to do- to explore!!! I have to remind myself that I am exactly where I need to be at the right time, always!! I have a long and lucious life ahead and can do everything I dream of doing!
Peru--- Thailand--- Fiji--- Hawaii--- South America--- India---- Bali--- Costa Rica
The trick for me is to stay grounded and present with where I am. Yes I can dream. But I have to be fully commited to where I am at the moment. One thing at a TiME!
though I had a dream last night that I was inquiring about dancing with a tribal african fusion dance company in South Africa..... Mwhaha... yes!
An ode to the winter. An ode to hot tea. An Ode to cuddling. an ode to being fully in love with yourself!
Thanks for reading my very spastic post.... This is just a way to say what I feel like saying with no order or concern about how it reads.
Love you,
Norianna
Massage school is almost done. I have about a month left of classes, and then I have January to finish up anything extra. Who knows what will happen after I graduate.
My brain wants to plan and figure out the next step. My heart is being drawn back to the Islands of Hawaii. My heart also needs to be dancing, creating art, training, utilizing this body I have to dance my dances.
Things are flowing nicely. I have such an amazing homebase filled with so much love, respect, and Goddess power. Cree, Shelly, and I have such powerful harmony it is almost ridiculous. What an empowering stage of my life I am in, to be living with such amazing Goddesses- and to be furthering my own work as a healer.
Since as long as I can remember I have known my work here is many-fold. Physically I feel like I am always attempting to mesh myself in the healing world and the artistic dance world at the same time. Living in Mexico, dancing, was an intense period of creative explosion, and now living in Salt Lake city, I am in an intense period of learning deeply about the body and different methods of how to bring it back to balance. Maybe my life will keep doing this big pendulum swing from healing to dance- untill I can bring them both into my life fully and equally. Besides the fact that each contains the other as in the Yin/Yang balance. To dance is to heal, and to heal is to dance with life.
(In lomi-lomi massage from hawaii- the philosophy is to be dancing with God on the clients body-)!!!!
So many wonderful things to do- to explore!!! I have to remind myself that I am exactly where I need to be at the right time, always!! I have a long and lucious life ahead and can do everything I dream of doing!
Peru--- Thailand--- Fiji--- Hawaii--- South America--- India---- Bali--- Costa Rica
The trick for me is to stay grounded and present with where I am. Yes I can dream. But I have to be fully commited to where I am at the moment. One thing at a TiME!
though I had a dream last night that I was inquiring about dancing with a tribal african fusion dance company in South Africa..... Mwhaha... yes!
An ode to the winter. An ode to hot tea. An Ode to cuddling. an ode to being fully in love with yourself!
Thanks for reading my very spastic post.... This is just a way to say what I feel like saying with no order or concern about how it reads.
Love you,
Norianna
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Long Time Running
So finally I remember again that I have a blog. I have no idea who is even reading this- but I figure since I am posting this on the world wide web someone is bound to see these words.
Life is a mirror. We see what is reflected back to us. Our perception is viewed through our lenses of conditioning, beliefs, judgments, and ego.
I was just thinking yesterday how cool it is to imagine and think about the Human RACE as a collective. Each individual is fulfilling a unique and different facet/aspect of the divine. You might be more inclined to study bones and anthropology- while your neighbor is busy living out the photographer's dream. We are all living out each other's unfulfilled potential that individually we aren't accessing. You are the me that I never was or will be in this life. We are each other. Playing out each other's desires, fears, habits, trials and tribulations. Trippy
So as a whole we are a complete unit. In the human race we have EVERY possible character, ego-personality, talents, vibration, DNA chains.... everything that is possible to exist in the human race does. We are a large, grand, experiment traveling on a spinning globe in a Multiverse inside of galaxy upon galaxy. Wow. How serious we are. How serious we take life. What if it was just a big intricate illusional game that you signed on to play when you were still a pure soul wanting to travel to the big Earth University to experience the ultimate thrills of being human.
A big game on the wheel of life; and you are my brother, and you are my sister. You complete the parts of me that I in this body will never want to experience or live out in this lifetime. So I get to watch all around me as parts of my potential self are being played out in every interaction I have.
Whooa
Take a deep breath. The moment is always now.
Think about your past, the day that has flown by for you to arrive at this moment to read these words.
Doesn't it seem like a dream? how is it any different in your head than an actual dream? Couldn't you manipulate your dreams in your head to fit how you desire your reality to be?
The future is a dream too. There is no real difference in your mental head and imagination between past and future- the only difference being that your perception of them is locked into a linear sense of time.
Couldn't your past be your future, or vice versa? Couldn't you dream up your very present- if in fact all of life is just different layers of the dreamscape reality. If you are the dreamer couldn't you control your perception and experience of this very tangible, physical dream?
So then we come to the present. Again and again and again. Ok. I remind myself. Now is here, now is all WE HAVE.
We are a collective human race hurdling through dimensions at a rapid speed. Who is ready for takeoff? Who knows enough about themselves to be strong and comfy in their center admist all of this change?
Since we are a race of incredible human beings- our own experience affects everyone connected to this web of humanity. Your story matters. How you live matters. It inspires or drags down everyone you come into contact with. We are here to lift each other up, higher and higher!
Ready for 11.11.11. All it is is another date. Numbers being matter of energetics though, it is a powerful portal for unity and syncronization.
Loving you family,
stunned goddess of laughter
Life is a mirror. We see what is reflected back to us. Our perception is viewed through our lenses of conditioning, beliefs, judgments, and ego.
I was just thinking yesterday how cool it is to imagine and think about the Human RACE as a collective. Each individual is fulfilling a unique and different facet/aspect of the divine. You might be more inclined to study bones and anthropology- while your neighbor is busy living out the photographer's dream. We are all living out each other's unfulfilled potential that individually we aren't accessing. You are the me that I never was or will be in this life. We are each other. Playing out each other's desires, fears, habits, trials and tribulations. Trippy
So as a whole we are a complete unit. In the human race we have EVERY possible character, ego-personality, talents, vibration, DNA chains.... everything that is possible to exist in the human race does. We are a large, grand, experiment traveling on a spinning globe in a Multiverse inside of galaxy upon galaxy. Wow. How serious we are. How serious we take life. What if it was just a big intricate illusional game that you signed on to play when you were still a pure soul wanting to travel to the big Earth University to experience the ultimate thrills of being human.
A big game on the wheel of life; and you are my brother, and you are my sister. You complete the parts of me that I in this body will never want to experience or live out in this lifetime. So I get to watch all around me as parts of my potential self are being played out in every interaction I have.
Whooa
Take a deep breath. The moment is always now.
Think about your past, the day that has flown by for you to arrive at this moment to read these words.
Doesn't it seem like a dream? how is it any different in your head than an actual dream? Couldn't you manipulate your dreams in your head to fit how you desire your reality to be?
The future is a dream too. There is no real difference in your mental head and imagination between past and future- the only difference being that your perception of them is locked into a linear sense of time.
Couldn't your past be your future, or vice versa? Couldn't you dream up your very present- if in fact all of life is just different layers of the dreamscape reality. If you are the dreamer couldn't you control your perception and experience of this very tangible, physical dream?
So then we come to the present. Again and again and again. Ok. I remind myself. Now is here, now is all WE HAVE.
We are a collective human race hurdling through dimensions at a rapid speed. Who is ready for takeoff? Who knows enough about themselves to be strong and comfy in their center admist all of this change?
Since we are a race of incredible human beings- our own experience affects everyone connected to this web of humanity. Your story matters. How you live matters. It inspires or drags down everyone you come into contact with. We are here to lift each other up, higher and higher!
Ready for 11.11.11. All it is is another date. Numbers being matter of energetics though, it is a powerful portal for unity and syncro
Loving you family,
stunned goddess of laughter
Sunday, September 25, 2011
House manifestation complete. Whew.
Last night Cree, Shelly, and I signed a lease contract agreement for our NEW HOUSE.
Do you realize how monumental this is???
It has taken us 3 months to find and finally land a place. We have found other houses multiple times- but either it was being rented to someone else or mold became an issue or some other wierd upset came in the way. So now to finally actually solidly realistically be moving in is HUGE.
This house is really amazing: the back yard is BIG for salt lake city. There is a garden with fresh tomatos, squash, chard, different berry bushes, 3 different types of grapes, nectarines, plums, apples.... you name it we got it! The landlord lives in the basement with his 12 year old daughter- I have a good feeling about them. Mike, the landlord is super on it about safety, he is a fix it all type of man, and a super chill and cool dimenor. It is almost like we have a safe haven bubble around our house- and we have a man there just in case anything were to go terribly wrong.
Each of us 3 girls have our own bedroom. I of course get the tiny bedroom- mainly because I hardly own anything. Moving out to salt lake from North Carolina left me possesing literally 2 suitcases and a backpack. BAM- that makes things super easy and simple. I am so estatic to finally have a home. A bedroom. A place to constantly come back to that is MINE- private and quiet. I am so grateful to have this opportunity to live with two other amazing tuned-in goddesses as well. We are going to create such a beautiful harmonious atmosphere in our home. We even plan on having full- moon goddess gatherings once a month at least- utilizing our fire pit outside- (and when it is too cold- utilizing our grand fire place inside).
This is a huge commitment for me. Really the first time I have signed a lease ever- meaning I am really commiting to something here. I have to commit to a monthly budget- pay rent- manage finances- stay on top of school- work- and play.
I love how everything is falling into place also right around the fall equinox-
Times of balancing out energies.
This week I have a dance performance coming up as well. It is just a little side gig but it has been a super enjoyable process. The choreographer is a complete "non-dancer" meaning this is his first time working with dancers or doing anything dance related. So it makes for a really interesting and ever-changing choreographic process.
So like always: things are coming full circle, completing, and moving forward.
For 3 months I have attended massage school full time while sleeping on a massage table, the couch, or a futon, keeping my stuff mostly packed away, and living pretty spontaneously. It has been challenging at times, yet all in all the community house I have been staying in has been a really enriching lovely experience.
New beginnings.
New manifestations.
New commitments.
New loves.
New desires.
New goals.
New limits.
We are expanding conciousness rapidly. Riding a wavy rollercoaster through the dimensions of time-space reality. My journey is just one admist everyother god-being walking this earth. It is fun to share my stories with you, hopefully it does someone some good?!!
LOVE AND LIGHT
Do you realize how monumental this is???
It has taken us 3 months to find and finally land a place. We have found other houses multiple times- but either it was being rented to someone else or mold became an issue or some other wierd upset came in the way. So now to finally actually solidly realistically be moving in is HUGE.
This house is really amazing: the back yard is BIG for salt lake city. There is a garden with fresh tomatos, squash, chard, different berry bushes, 3 different types of grapes, nectarines, plums, apples.... you name it we got it! The landlord lives in the basement with his 12 year old daughter- I have a good feeling about them. Mike, the landlord is super on it about safety, he is a fix it all type of man, and a super chill and cool dimenor. It is almost like we have a safe haven bubble around our house- and we have a man there just in case anything were to go terribly wrong.
Each of us 3 girls have our own bedroom. I of course get the tiny bedroom- mainly because I hardly own anything. Moving out to salt lake from North Carolina left me possesing literally 2 suitcases and a backpack. BAM- that makes things super easy and simple. I am so estatic to finally have a home. A bedroom. A place to constantly come back to that is MINE- private and quiet. I am so grateful to have this opportunity to live with two other amazing tuned-in goddesses as well. We are going to create such a beautiful harmonious atmosphere in our home. We even plan on having full- moon goddess gatherings once a month at least- utilizing our fire pit outside- (and when it is too cold- utilizing our grand fire place inside).
This is a huge commitment for me. Really the first time I have signed a lease ever- meaning I am really commiting to something here. I have to commit to a monthly budget- pay rent- manage finances- stay on top of school- work- and play.
I love how everything is falling into place also right around the fall equinox-
Times of balancing out energies.
This week I have a dance performance coming up as well. It is just a little side gig but it has been a super enjoyable process. The choreographer is a complete "non-dancer" meaning this is his first time working with dancers or doing anything dance related. So it makes for a really interesting and ever-changing choreographic process.
So like always: things are coming full circle, completing, and moving forward.
For 3 months I have attended massage school full time while sleeping on a massage table, the couch, or a futon, keeping my stuff mostly packed away, and living pretty spontaneously. It has been challenging at times, yet all in all the community house I have been staying in has been a really enriching lovely experience.
New beginnings.
New manifestations.
New commitments.
New loves.
New desires.
New goals.
New limits.
We are expanding conciousness rapidly. Riding a wavy rollercoaster through the dimensions of time-space reality. My journey is just one admist everyother god-being walking this earth. It is fun to share my stories with you, hopefully it does someone some good?!!
LOVE AND LIGHT
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
butoh of pain
Pain is a huge teacher.
Teaches humility- submission to whatever is actually happening in the present moment.
Pain is a way of constantly being reminded you are in a physical body that needs love and attention.
This pain is.
Emotions surface.
Fustration. Non-understanding- impatience with the body- needing things to be healed faster then what is actually occuring.
Egos' desires versus the souls infinite wisdom.
Painbody is in pain.
I may not understand what is happening to my physical body- but this much I do know:
I want to be whole, complete, and 100% healthy.
Health is really EVERYTHING. It is such a challenge to stay upbeat and positive when one is in a lot of pain. I empathize with a lot of the world right now. How many children are getting limbs blown off in Iraq, or being raped in sudan, or starving, or extremely sick, ill, with no families, with nothing?
Whenever I compare my situation with those of so many others I am instantly humbled.
Yes I don't have my own bedroom right now- but Yes I do have a place to sleep that is warm and dry and comfortable.
Yes I can't make money right now being ill- but I have some savings to get me through and I will be able to make money when I am completely better.
there is always so much to complain about if we let ourselves- and then there is always so much to be grateful for if we let ourselves.
It is always a matter of choice. Our happiness depends on nothing except ourselves and our perception of life.
I can move through my scaredness, through the darkness and the unknown. I can dance a flailing dance of chaos in hopes to bring more centeredness to my dark frenzy.
I know when all is cleared I can look back on these moments and pat myself on the back for doing the best I could in any given circumstance.
So this is my butoh today. My acceptance of what is. I am healing. I am in a process.
I allow myself to rest into my own body- trusting it and it's strength to continue holding strong.
Teaches humility- submission to whatever is actually happening in the present moment.
Pain is a way of constantly being reminded you are in a physical body that needs love and attention.
This pain is.
Emotions surface.
Fustration. Non-understanding- impatience with the body- needing things to be healed faster then what is actually occuring.
Egos' desires versus the souls infinite wisdom.
Painbody is in pain.
I may not understand what is happening to my physical body- but this much I do know:
I want to be whole, complete, and 100% healthy.
Health is really EVERYTHING. It is such a challenge to stay upbeat and positive when one is in a lot of pain. I empathize with a lot of the world right now. How many children are getting limbs blown off in Iraq, or being raped in sudan, or starving, or extremely sick, ill, with no families, with nothing?
Whenever I compare my situation with those of so many others I am instantly humbled.
Yes I don't have my own bedroom right now- but Yes I do have a place to sleep that is warm and dry and comfortable.
Yes I can't make money right now being ill- but I have some savings to get me through and I will be able to make money when I am completely better.
there is always so much to complain about if we let ourselves- and then there is always so much to be grateful for if we let ourselves.
It is always a matter of choice. Our happiness depends on nothing except ourselves and our perception of life.
I can move through my scaredness, through the darkness and the unknown. I can dance a flailing dance of chaos in hopes to bring more centeredness to my dark frenzy.
I know when all is cleared I can look back on these moments and pat myself on the back for doing the best I could in any given circumstance.
So this is my butoh today. My acceptance of what is. I am healing. I am in a process.
I allow myself to rest into my own body- trusting it and it's strength to continue holding strong.
Monday, September 12, 2011
Full moon musings
I danced
For my own moon shadow to dance back in my reflection on the cool cement
No street lamps need to flicker
The sun's own infinite glow bounces back to hit me square in the heart
Dancing for the sweet joy of freedom
In expression --- lies the power
I breathe in the smell of midnight
bursting through the atoms of conciousness
How the moonlight caresses the very depths of my being
Forcing me to burst into a song of dance
Alone under this vast sky
I danced
For my own moon shadow to dance back in my reflection on the cool cement
No street lamps need to flicker
The sun's own infinite glow bounces back to hit me square in the heart
Dancing for the sweet joy of freedom
In expression --- lies the power
I breathe in the smell of midnight
bursting through the atoms of conciousness
How the moonlight caresses the very depths of my being
Forcing me to burst into a song of dance
Alone under this vast sky
I danced
Friday, September 2, 2011
love
This is the truth. When I open my heart. This is what pours out. I love. I love I love. I relish mama earth and her bounty, her skin is my own, her belly is what held me for 9 months while I evolved into something human-like. I am the sun's radiance, that which warms my own skin is my own love- reflecting back to me infinitely. I love.
When I stop. When I realize the levels of tension I carry around day to day- and when I reach a point of being able to let it all go- I am finally able to feel fully with my heart like I did when I was a child.
Our truth needs to be heard. Needs to be shared.
Time is only real in this very moment. How am I treating each moment?
This is how:
To immerse myself in the fragrances of lavender as I walk lesiurely past bushes and bushes of purple budding scents. My every cell can vibrate with affection for one another at how magical everything always fits together. There is no seperation between the air I breathe and the breather. Life flows through it all- I am life. I am the peak the valley and the plain of life. I have it all.
this is the truth. I strive to live it.
Relish these moments. Relish the light reflecting brilliantly onto deeply colored maple trees. Relish your family, those that love you through anything. Relish your own capability of brilliance-
As we are all relections of eachother.
May we lift eachother higher and higher till we finally merge to become whole with the sun!
When I stop. When I realize the levels of tension I carry around day to day- and when I reach a point of being able to let it all go- I am finally able to feel fully with my heart like I did when I was a child.
Our truth needs to be heard. Needs to be shared.
Time is only real in this very moment. How am I treating each moment?
This is how:
To immerse myself in the fragrances of lavender as I walk lesiurely past bushes and bushes of purple budding scents. My every cell can vibrate with affection for one another at how magical everything always fits together. There is no seperation between the air I breathe and the breather. Life flows through it all- I am life. I am the peak the valley and the plain of life. I have it all.
this is the truth. I strive to live it.
Relish these moments. Relish the light reflecting brilliantly onto deeply colored maple trees. Relish your family, those that love you through anything. Relish your own capability of brilliance-
As we are all relections of eachother.
May we lift eachother higher and higher till we finally merge to become whole with the sun!
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