Monday, February 20, 2012

wings of support

Wow... I have basically been caught up in the every day ebb and flow of life here in SLC. I do want to keep this blog updated- yet I seem to be having trouble remembering- or just making the time to do so. So for further update- I graduated Massage School back in January- and I am still in the process of semi-studying and waiting for the letter to come in the mail that I can take my National  Certification Exam.... Patience, patience, patience...

Wow I have been learning so much during my time here in SLC. It is so beautiful to have such a close friend serve as a reminder and reflection of myself in all the growing I have done in the past 9 months. Gestation period. Wow.

I am self-sustained. Learning about what it is that I truly desire. How I desire to be met on every level of my being by my close friends and lovers. How I desire to be dancing freely and creating art within community. How I desire to continue learning and diving further into the body, movement, and healing. How I desire to be a grounded gypsy - grounded in where I am at the moment but always open and ready for the next big adventure to come my way. How I desire LOVE. Unconditional love in the ways it wants to hug me from friends and syncronisities. I desire to be in complete union with spirit and to attract other beings into my life who are indeed living in harmony with spirit and laws of creation.
I desire to be held and craddled in my counterpart - a masculine energy that balances out every aspect of my own self.

I am open and ready for whatever it is I am supposed to do. Now is all I have. Now is something I must practice. I have to practice being in love with this moment. I am generally quite content with whatever the moment is. Yet I want to practice being in LOVE with this moment. Like that sensation that my heart wants to melt for witnessing the pure beauty that is life is too much to handle sometimes. Kind of like seeing a puppy that is so adorable it almost hurts....

So Yeah. I am grateful. Even for all the miracle that happen every day if we open our eyes to them. Like for example last night I had an accident where I should have broken my ankle or seriously sprained it- due to the way I fell... yet I got up and knew it was not that serious. I did stress a ligament- but I am so grateful nothing more serious happened. In moments like that I feel very craddled by my angles/guardians- I sense their wings of support around me.

Just some words to chew on....

Loving you.